There’s a line from Letters to a Young Poet that crushed me when I was in school. In short, Rilke said that if you can ask yourself “Must I write?” and the answer is no, then you should probably give up on it and go do something else. If he wasn’t phrasing it like a jerk, he is basically saying “Follow your real passion and don’t waste time trying to force yourself into a painful and false narrative of yourself.” But still, pretty crushing if you can say no.
I started a new side project outside of my job recently, and for the first time since in nigh on a decade the answer to that question is a hesitation free “yes”. I feel absolutely compelled to create content. It is an amazing feeling.
So…I dunno I’m thanking Rilke for the dickish metric by which I feel happy right now. I think I am?
Anyway, exciting times for this chump right here.